This was originally posted on October 4, 2012, but was deleted due to webshosting issues and is now recovered.

“it’s a brand new day. the sun is shining. for the first time in such a long, long time, i know i’ll be okay.” – joshua radin

This beautiful song keeps coming up on my pandora station. And I cry every.single.dang.time. You’d think I’d have run out of tears by now.

After the mortuary took Amelia’s tiny body away, Tyler and I secluded ourselves in our bedroom for a bit. We couldn’t sit still, and we didn’t dare talk about what had just happened, how our little family had been ripped to pieces and how our lives had been changed forever. While we folded clothes and organized to keep busy, I turned on the Joshua Radin pandora station. This song (“It’s a Brand New Day” by Joshua Radin) was the first one that came one. And I knew right then that deep inside, I’d be okay.

So here’s a reminder for myself today. You’ll be okay, Alie.