I wanted to tell you that when our Jack was born, I felt this immediate bond with him. But, when Eli was born, there was a whole lotta nothing. I loved him, for sure, but there wasn’t that closeness that I had felt with Jack. It seems like it took weeks and weeks for that to kick in. Eli also struggled with breastfeeding, and it was painful for the first several months with him, which I felt somehow contributed to the whole bonding thing (because our relationship often involved pain). But it did eventually kick in. I felt like another part of it was that it seemed like I was so used to Jack and having just that one child to pour all of my love onto, that I had to learn how to love Eli for WHO he was, not just as THE (only) child. I don’t know if that makes sense or not. It was definitely a different experience than having my first baby and falling immediately in love. I know your situation is a lot different, but I thought I’d share anyway :). Lots of love.